August 23 2023

What I Didn’t Know About Surrender

Beach
Bench in Wooded Park

“Nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will.” Matthew 26:39

It is late in the evening, as I sit here and write.  The days are noticeably shorter, so it is already very dark outside on this evening in August.  I don’t know about you, but I find that although the days move slowly, they accumulate quickly, therefore time moves slowly but passes quickly all at the same time.  I don’t know that this statement even makes sense, but it is my current experience.

I was able to slip away to the beach for a few hours a week or so ago. It was there, as I sat on the sand and listened to the waves, that the Lord spoke to me about surrender. He has been speaking to me for quite some time, in bits and pieces.  Reminding me He has a plan for me – inviting me to come to Him and rest – asking me if I am tired, yet, of always trying to be in control. Helping me to understand, day by day, a little at a time, what surrender really looks like in my everyday life.  But this day, on the beach, He summed it up for me. 

I was so deep in thought, listening so carefully to what God was placing in my heart, that the older gentleman who was walking on the beach, shifted the trajectory of his walk in my direction, to pause right in front of me.  I looked up at him and he smiled kindly and asked me, in French, if I was meditating.  Although I caught it, even in another language, he repeated it slowly in English for me.  He didn’t wait for my answer- he just swept his hand out toward the ocean in a large arc, and said – “This, this is good for the soul – good for the spirit”.  With one more smile, he nodded his head and continued on his journey.

As he went on his way, I looked out at the ocean and heard God say, “Tell me what you didn’t know about surrender.”

I smiled.  That was clever.  He didn’t ask what I knew or thought I knew – He asked me what I now know that I didn’t know before.  It’s a nice way of telling me I didn’t know all that I thought I knew. Also, a reminder that He has led me through a path in the last weeks, that has allowed me to learn what I needed to learn to respond in surrender.

How do you understand surrender? What comes to your mind?  How does the thought of it make you feel?  Honestly.  

I guess somewhere in the back of my mind I saw surrender as being beaten down, defeated, not able to win, and so standing up (hesitantly and fearfully, with great regret) and waving a little white flag that signalled that I was done, giving up, and ready to submit to a life of hard labour for the other; an “other” who did not have a good plan for me.

Sounds like something from a movie, doesn’t it? 

And perhaps, that is the way of surrender in the movies.  Or maybe even life in this world.

But, as Christians, although we are in the world, we are not of the world.  Therefore, how we understand things must be based on the truth God shows us, rather than what we see around us.  Often that truth looks a bit “upside down”. 

I am continuously amazed at the patience God has in showing me His truth, day after day. Helping me to see the world, myself and Him, through His eyes; changing my perspective, that lens I have developed over the years through which I see and understand things.

And I never know exactly how He is going to change that perspective.  So, as I sat on the beach, I began listing the things I hadn’t understood about surrender:

  1. Surrender is active, not passive – it requires intentionality- you must choose to surrender, it doesn’t just happen to you
  2. Surrender takes strength- it is not weakness
  3. Surrender takes courage – it is not for the faint of heart
  4. Surrender brings relief not regret
  5. Surrender helps you to feel more in control not less – more in control of the parts of your life you are actually in control of (like choosing to surrender)
  6. Surrender causes things to happen – it does not hinder things from happening or cause them to stall
  7. Surrender is more than acknowledging you are not in control – it is two-prong * choosing to let go of the control & *choosing to trust that He has a good plan for me
  8. Surrender does not lead to captivity- but to freedom

    2 Corinthians 3:17 “Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty {freedom}.”

  9. Surrender does not lead to fearfulness or uncertainty -but to peace

    John 14:27 “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

  10. Surrender does not lead to labour for an “other” – but to rest in Him

    Matthew 11:28 “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

  11. Surrender is not a one-time thing- it is a daily choice
  12. Surrender is hard – it can be easy
  13. Surrender is easy – it can be hard

He went a little farther and fell on His face, and prayed, saying, “O My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will.” Matthew 26:39

Again, a second time, He went away and prayed, saying, “O My Father, if this cup cannot pass away from Me unless I drink it, Your will be done.” Matthew 26:42

God showed me an interesting thing.  When Jesus was praying in the garden of Gethsemane, He asked God if this “cup” could pass from Him- nevertheless, He surrendered to God’s plan.  That was in verse 39. Then, a few verses later, after His disciples fell asleep on Him when they were supposed to be praying with Him, in verse 42, He prayed a second time, “if this cup cannot pass away from Me……” – almost like He was asking again. 

There will be times, when you surrender, then ask again, “God does it have to be this way?” That is OK.  God knows us, what we are made of, and how many times we will ask for things to be different, before we surrender and after we surrender and before we choose to surrender daily.  He is a gracious and loving Father.

Has God been talking to you about surrender?

Where are you at with that? 

Is He still reminding you that He has a plan for you?  Inviting you to come to Him and rest? Asking you if you are tired, yet, of always trying to be in control. Is he still helping you to understand, day by day, a little at a time, what surrender really looks like in your everyday life.  Or is He sitting with you at the beach, summing it up for you and asking you, “Tell me what you didn’t know about surrender?”

Wherever you find yourself on this journey – know that He is faithful, He sees you just as you are, He knows exactly what He has for you and He LOVES you so very much.

Life doesn’t always look the way we thought it would and we often are pretty sure we could come up with a better plan given half the chance. 

However, in the midst of all that, I am choosing, today, tomorrow, and the next day to not only acknowledge that I am not in control and to give up my need to feel as if I am in control, but to also trust that God has a good plan for me. 

Today I say: “O My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will.” – AND “O My Father, if this cup cannot pass away from Me unless I drink it, Your will be done.”

What will you choose to do?

Flowers
June 22 2023

They Sing in The Dark

“My soul still remembers and sinks within me. This I recall to my mind, therefore I have hope. Through the LORD’s mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. “The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I hope in Him!” The LORD is good to those who wait for Him, To the soul who seeks Him. It is good that one should hope and wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD.” Lamentations 3:20-26 (NKJ)

Summer has arrived and as is the way of the weather in Atlantic Canada leading up to summer, we often transition through 4 seasons in a day. With summer’s arrival yesterday, came heat and humidity – a lot of it – a sudden change from the wet and cold of the week before.  Being in a transitional stage of life, where temperature regulation is not my strong suit, and with the combination of heat and humidity and unpredictable “tropical moments,” I have started to sleep with the fan on and the window open overnight.

I must say that the fresh air flowing in through the window at night and first thing in the morning has been refreshing.  Even Nico, the cat, enjoys it – spending much of his time sitting with his little nose in the air- “sniffing” the breeze as it enters the room.

Very early this morning, I woke to a beautiful song.  It was very dark in the room as I opened my eyes, looking around for the source of the melody.  I was still sleepy and it took me a few moments to figure out where it was coming from. 

It was the birds in my backyard.

It didn’t make much sense to me – it was still so dark outside- not even a hint that morning was coming or had arrived.

I laid back on my pillow and thought about this.

Jesus whispered softly to me- “They sing because they know what is coming.”

I imagine you stopped by to skim through this blog quickly- but don’t rush too quickly past this word: “They sing because they know what is coming.” Stop here and sit with this for a moment.

Does this speak to you? In what way? What are you hearing, at this moment?

The birds outside my window sing in the morning, in the dark, before a sliver of light can be seen.

They sing because it is morning –

 Although they can’t yet see the light

They sing because they know what is coming.

In Psalm 61:1-4, we hear the Psalmist’s heart. “Hear my cry, O God; attend to my prayer. From the end of the earth I will cry to You, when my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For You have been a shelter for me, a strong tower from the enemy. I will abide in Your tabernacle forever; I will trust in the shelter of Your wings. Selah”

In time of trouble, and overwhelm, a cry flows from the Psalmist’s lips.  To Whom does he cry out?  His spouse, his family, his friends, his Pastor, church family, neighbours, strangers in the grocery store or his counsellor?  Perhaps at some point and at some level.  But this cry, the one that comes when he finds himself at the end of the earth, this cry flows out to God.  Why?  Because the Psalmist knows that there is a Rock, a Rock that is a shelter and a strong tower; a place of peace and comfort and compassion. A place in God’s presence that can not only bear the cry of his heart but can also respond to it.

Perhaps the birds sing in the dark, when there is not even a sliver of light because they know the safety and warmth, the refuge, of that place under the shelter of His (God’s) wings.

Lamentations 3:20-26 reads: “My soul still remembers and sinks within me. This I recall to my mind, therefore I have hope. Through the LORD’s mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. “The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I hope in Him!” The LORD is good to those who wait for Him, To the soul who seeks Him. It is good that one should hope and wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD.”

Perhaps the birds sing to usher in the compassions of the Lord that are new every morning, in hope, in the quiet of the yet darkness.

In Jeremiah 29:11, we are reminded: “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”

We often take this verse and think, “Yes, God has a plan, right now, a good plan, right now, everything is wonderful, right now.”

It is important, though, to read things in context.  The verse before, Jeremiah 29:10, gives us that context.

This is what the LORD says: “You will be in Babylon for seventy years. But then I will come and do for you all the good things I have promised, and I will bring you home again.” Jeremiah 29:10 (NIV)

If we put that all together, things look a bit different:

“This is what the LORD says: “You will be in Babylon for seventy years. But then I will come and do for you all the good things I have promised, and I will bring you home again. For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:10, 11 (NIV)

The Lord had good plans for the people, plans for a future and a hope, AND they would remain in captivity in Babylon for seventy years. 

Yes, God had a plan, for right now and for later, a good plan, for right now and for later, AND things were going to be hard, right now, before they were going to get to go home, later.

I often wondered why God told the prophet this.  Maybe to give the people a hope, not just for later, but a hope that would sustain them through the “captivity” of now.

Perhaps the birds sing because even as they sit in the dark, they have hope that the light will come.

Maybe you find yourself in the dark, this day, without a sliver of light showing through the blackness around you. May you be like the birds in my backyard early this morning, singing. 

Cry out to God- He is the Rock that is a shelter and a strong tower; a place of peace and comfort and compassion. He can bear the cry of your heart, and can also respond to it.

May you sing in the dark, when there is not even a sliver of light, because you know the safety and warmth, the refuge, of that place under the shelter of His (God’s) wings.

May you sing in the dark, in hope, in the quiet of the “yet darkness” to usher in the compassions of the Lord that are new every morning.

May you sing even as you sit in the dark because you have hope that the light will come- God has a plan for good and not for disaster – a plan for your future after the captivity– a plan you need to hold onto now; a hope in the midst of your captivity that will get you through to the other side of the darkness.

The birds outside my window sing in the morning, in the dark, before a sliver of light can be seen.

They sing because it is morning –

Although they can’t yet see the light

They sing because they know what is coming.

As I listened to the birds sing this morning- I watched the rays of the sun slowly make their way across the sky and into my room, spreading out across the hardwood floor; a beautiful testimony of what happens when we choose to sing in the dark.

May that be my testimony and your testimony as well.

Until next time!

laurie

April 30 2023

Earthen Vessels and Roots

brown stack clay pot
Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash
tree roots on rock formation
Photo by Zach Reiner on Unsplash

But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed—always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. 2 Corinthians 4:7-10 NKJV

“But blessed are those who trust in the LORD and have made the LORD their hope and confidence. They are like trees planted along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves stay green, and they never stop producing fruit. Jeremiah 17:7-8 NLT

In the wooded park, where I like to walk there is a tree, to the right side of the path, that toppled over some time ago.  It is a very large tree and when it fell to the ground, its entire root system pulled up with it.  When you walk by the first thing you see is the “underneath” of the tree – you have to look around it to see what is left of the trunk and branches.  Every time I walk by, I think, wow, that is a big root system. 

Have you ever sat and watched the trees in a wind storm, mild or gale force winds or perhaps even a hurricane?  The fascinating way some twist and bend, sometimes, even to the ground, and spring back up again, while others, break or topple over completely?  When Hurricane Juan hit Atlantic Canada in 2003, we were living in Porters Lake, in Nova Scotia.  The worst part of the wind hit overnight – coming onshore not far from where we lived at the time, passing right over our home and community. It was dark and we could not see what was happening outside but could hear the wind swirling.  It came in waves, starting low and rising in speed and intensity and then slowing down again. Over and over again all night.  The next day as we drove through our area, the aftermath was hard to process.  So many trees, massive trees, upended and uprooted, their large root systems exposed for all to see.

Have you ever experienced a time in life when you felt you were in a figurative wind storm; mild or gale force winds or perhaps even a hurricane? Could you feel the bending and twisting and cracking, in your body, soul, spirit and mind?  Were there times you were completely upended, roots exposed for all to see and other times you sprang back at the moment you thought everything would be lost?

In the last 6 months, my husband and I have been in a wind storm.  It started mild, and then took turns moving between gale and hurricane-force winds.  In the beginning, I remember thinking how important it was going to be to ensure (no matter how busy and chaotic it was going to get) that I was in the Word of God regularly.  I knew that what comes out of me in times of distress is the fruit of the particular seeds I have sown all along.  I knew that the Word of God in me, the scriptures I would sow, would be the fruit that would feed me and those around me in the days to come; the evidence to myself and others of what I carry within me.  I also knew that it WAS going to get busy and chaotic. 

I began to ask the Lord for the scriptures I would need. As He gave them to me- in a variety of ways – I wrote them out on cue cards. There are many wonderful scriptures, but I sought the Lord for the ones I would need most during this time. I carried my cue cards with me everywhere in my purse – they were portable, easy to pull out and left no room for excuses – “I don’t have my Bible”, “I’m too tired to look up Scripture”, “I forgot”, or even, “I don’t want to”.  Because of my focus on a handful of verses, they quickly became rooted deep in the soil of my mind and heart for those nights I sat in the dark in the hospital by my husband’s bed or at home by myself and couldn’t find a light to read by, physically or figurately. They came to mind quickly, without much effort, providing life-giving nutrients to sustain me.

Two of the verses that sustained me are the verses noted at the top of the page.

Today, I spent some time and studied these scriptures a bit further.

But we have this treasure in earthen (ostrakinos- of the earth with the added suggestion of frailty) vessels, that the excellence (hyperbole -exceeding, beyond measure) of the power (force, miraculous power) may be of God (theos) and not of us. We are hard-pressed (thlibō – as in to press grapes, troubled, contracted, crowded) on every side yet not crushed; we are perplexed (aporeō – to be without resources, not knowing where to turn) but not in despair; persecuted (diōkō- pursued) but not forsaken; struck down (kataballō – thrown to the ground prostrate), but not destroyed (apollymi – put away entirely or rendered useless) – always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also  may be manifested (phaneroō-to make manifest or visible or known what has been hidden or unknown) in our body. 2 Corinthians 4:7-10

Ah yes, the frailty – the pressing, lack of resources and certainty, the feelings of being relentlessly pursued and thrown to the ground- the windstorm.

Yet, through it all, the ability to feel the exceeding power of God moving within and without.

This has been my experience. 

Today I wondered aloud about it.  What is it, that allows that exceeding power of God to move within and without this earthen vessel called Laurie, through the pain of being hard-pressed, perplexed, persecuted and struck down; ensuring I am not crushed, in despair, forsaken or destroyed (put away entirely or rendered useless); even amid the wind storm.

“But blessed are those who trust (bāṭaḥ -to confide in anyone, to set one’s hope and confidence in anyone) in the LORD and have made the LORD their hope and confidence (miḇṭāḥ – refuge, hope and confidence). They are like trees planted (šāṯal – planted, transplanted, slip, cutting) along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep (šālaḥ – to send, send away, let go, stretch out) into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat or worried by long months of drought (baṣṣōreṯ – restraint or drought). Their leaves stay green (raʿănān – of trees growing and flourishing), and they never stop producing fruit (pᵊrî – the fruit of produce, offspring, or actions). Jeremiah 17:7-8 NLT

When I read this today, I thought back to the tree in the park – toppled over with its very large root system showing – and for the first time I understood – the root system of this tree was large in the sense of width, but not depth. The roots reached many feet on either side to the north, south, east and west of the trunk, but the roots were not planted deep into the soil.  When the windstorm came, the wideness of the root system could not support the weight of the truck and branches and leaves as they twisted and bent in the wind.

In the original, these verses in Jeremiah are worded this way “Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord and whose trust is in the Lord.” 

Who trusts in……and whose trust is.

That is a lot of trust.

A trust which involves taking refuge in and putting one’s confidence in the Lord.  Regardless of the experience of the windstorm; or in this case, the heat and the drought. And these trees are not just any trees, they are transplanted trees (slips or cuttings) that have been placed intentionally along the riverbank, whose roots have been “let go” or freed to stretch out deep.  This allows them to produce fruit (literally and figurately).

It has been my experience that the exceeding power of God works in this frail earthen vessel when I trust in Him and allow myself to be transplanted (from all the other things I am tempted to trust in), and placed along His riverbank. When I not only allow, but encourage, my roots to be freed (from me, from others and the world) to shoot out/stretch deep and far in Him.  When this happens, my root system is deep as well as wide, allowing stability in the windstorms I find myself in. And when my root system is wide, I may bend and twist, even to the ground, but I will bounce back up with breaking.  And that fruit – that fruit that comes out of me in times of distress – it will be the same fruit that comes out in times of abundance – based on the seeds that have been sown – it will be produced in times of heat, in times of drought, in times of wind. 

In this windstorm, the Word of God on those cue cards – they reminded me of the promises of God; of His unfailing love for me; of His faithfulness that is new every morning, sustaining me; of who I belong to and how He cares for me in the wind, the heat and the drought; of how to stand in “my only safe place” and allow Him to carry me amid the worries that surround me.  These Words encouraged me, supported me, increased my faith, reminded me of the faithfulness of God in the past and assured me of His faithfulness now and in the future.  These Words shored up my trust, confidence and hope – allowing my roots to be freed, to stretch out deep so that despite the challenges, the force of the wind, the twisting and the bending, I would remain standing, in Him.

Are you in a windstorm – mild or gale force winds, or perhaps a hurricane?

Do you know that you are an earthen vessel, fragile, that the power of God may work through you?

Have you been transplanted beside His riverbank?

Have you allowed your roots to be “freed” to stretch out and grow deep rather than just wide?

Have you chosen to find refuge, hope and confidence in the Lord?

Will the seeds you sow now provide for good fruit despite the circumstances you find yourself in; providing nutrients to sustain you in the heat, droughts and windstorms of life?

Will your trust and hope and confidence in the Lord allow you to stand despite the pressing, lack of resources and certainty, the feelings of being relentlessly pursued and thrown to the ground – that you and those around you will see the excellence of the power of God at work in and through you?

There are and will be storms in life.  I have been through many and likely will be through many more.

Let me share my heart with you today – this heart that finds itself amid a windstorm that feels more like a whirlwind each day.

It has been and is my experience and my assurance that my trust, hope and confidence in God will allow my root system to run deep. That although the wind and heat and drought come, and I may twist and bend and come close to hitting the ground, as painful as it is, I will not break and be rendered useless. Rather my roots will grow deeper in the Lord.

My trust, hope and confidence remain in the Lord.

It is ONLY “through the Lord’s mercies we are [I am] not consumed, because His compassions fail not.  They are new every morning, great is Your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:22-23